Let's look at the current situation. I have 39 benefits. I've been working for two weeks and receive…

Let's look at the current situation. I have 39 benefits. I've been working for two weeks and received payments of 6500 and 8500. There's no other income. Essentially, these payments are considered bonuses. There's also a fixed salary part, but I don't even know if it's included in these amounts. The app shows salary on the 13th and 28th, but in reality, money comes every Friday. I need to somehow manage with two kids on this money. Here's what we have: I work a 2/2 schedule, from 9 AM to 9 PM. They changed the schedule voluntarily-involuntarily; it turned out that 5/2 is only for newcomers for the first week. For these two working days, everyone who could helped with the kids: a friend did, the dad came twice, and the mother-in-law did. Then she had to listen for a long time about why she needed to do this, even though she's already retired and supposed to be looking after the kids. The dad didn't watch the kids all days. My dad watched the grandkids. The first time, my husband came home for lunch, crashed, and then went out with a friend for a beer. The second time, a friend watched them. My husband even managed to scold her for not cooking dinner. We managed to have a fight, and he told her she was as lazy as your friend, which is why she's still unmarried; no one needs such a miracle. He also complained to me about why she was hanging around the house, saying neither of us does anything. I work somewhere for pennies, she's chilling at home with the kids, and he cooks himself scrambled eggs at 8 PM. Regarding housing. These are the options found so far. Actually ready to rent: an apartment for 30,000 * 2 months + a 40,000 deposit. A room for 25,000. But there's no fridge or washing machine. Only cold water in the dorm. The deposit can be split into 2 months of 15,000 each. That's all. I contacted an agency; they have options, but they are two- and three-bedroom apartments, starting from 40,000 per month + the same deposit. We went to see three options. A house for 67,000 per month in the city center, 70 sq.m. A two-bedroom apartment for 50,000. A small three-bedroom for 56,000. We liked the house the most, but naturally, we don't have enough money for it. You need to pay for 2 months upfront + a 60,000 deposit and a 38,000 agency commission. Well, that's basically it. There are two fears that are really holding me back right now. Money. Money. I'm scared to rent an apartment and then not be able to afford it. I've already written about my real income above. The second fear is how to schedule things with the kids. I found two women willing to babysit, but it's a minimum of 3000 per day. A friend is willing to babysit one day out of her two days off, but I understand that's temporary. Dad helps for now, but he can easily go on a drinking binge. He's broke right now, so he's not drinking much. His pension will be 10. So, that's the situation. I have 480 remaining from maternity capital. You can't buy anything for that amount here, not even a small room. I'm not approved for a credit card or a mortgage; I've already inquired through an agency. The cheapest room without maternity capital is 1.3 million. With maternity capital, it's around 2 million. My husband has fallen into a state where everyone around is lazy, he finds fault daily, everything is wrong. Like he comes home and there's nothing to eat, the duvet cover is made wrong, something else. My dad brought a cheap roll for him to have with tea; he doesn't eat that. He doesn't give money. This month he gave 25, and it's all gone on food. He gave cash; he spent 4000 in one day while I was working, ordered kebabs for himself because, apparently, I'm chilling at work, and he doesn't eat sausages and pasta. Whether he'll help with alimony is a very debatable question. I tried to bring up the topic and heard, "You're just talking shit, you would have fucked off long ago, you're just bothering us." He just wants to live alone, enjoy himself. He bought a can of caviar here, says it's his, don't touch it. He keeps it in the car. Work is also a dead end. For now, I'm working on a fixed-term contract until December, which is like a probationary period. Whether it will be extended or not, I don't know.