It was awful in the city closer to morning on October 26th... I haven't been able to recover since t…

It was awful in the city closer to morning on October 26th... I haven't been able to recover since then. I felt such a terrible sense of fear, and since then I've been afraid of loud noises, and I try not to linger outside... It feels like all my emotions have disappeared. I don't see a future, I don't want anything. The days have become like stretching rubber. I constantly want to sleep, my head hurts. I try not to talk to anyone. We moved six years ago, and because of this situation, I thought we needed to move out separately, but that's also difficult now. The kids are at school, we only have one home, and how can I manage all of this: the paperwork, the move... And I'm afraid of making a mistake again, of leaving for nothing. This is also very stressful because we came here so that the children would have a peaceful, bright future, and now there are studios in the corridors, children are crying, and I... In moments like these, I feel like I'm having a panic attack. I don't remember myself, I can't pull myself together, even though my mind knows the children are nearby and I can't scare them. Basically, I feel like I'm in a vicious cycle... No one gives advice or even calls me back (all my relatives say: just endure... Everything will be fine soon... but it's getting worse and worse). My hands are shaking as I write this, again... (( Please don't judge... I'm truly not okay. I just want some advice, I guess...