Thank you all for responding to my last post. Okay, I've already picked up the medication from the p…

Thank you all for responding to my last post. Okay, I've already picked up the medication from the pharmacy, but I haven't decided yet whether to take it or not. Honestly, I'm really scared. First, concentration and driving. I spend five hours a day driving. A sudden lapse in concentration is not typical for me at all (and definitely not now). It's already hard for me to focus on my tasks, and now this medication on top of it. I could tolerate stomach pain and nausea as side effects, but I'm terrified of having an accident and my performance dropping (which is the source of my stress). Second, weight. After I started counting calories, I developed binge eating disorder (BED) and gained 5 kg in 6 weeks. It doesn't visually affect me much, but it's there. There's a chance the medication will increase my appetite. My appearance is very important to me, and gaining weight now could send me into depression (I'm currently dealing with general anxiety). Third, I looked at other people's stories and realized that my problems are a drop in the ocean compared to their triggers for taking antidepressants. I feel like a fraud next to them. And this creates another problem - I can't allow myself to relax and make mistakes. Moreover, I perceive my condition as "laziness and procrastination" (thanks to Anya for articulating that thought). Although deep down I know it's not true. But I can't admit it to myself. Thanks to my parents for my upbringing (well, that's a problem for my whole generation, I haven't been able to unlearn it completely). Fourth, my therapist referred me to a psychotherapist. In addition to binge eating, I've developed shortness of breath, nosebleeds in the morning, waking up at 3-4 AM and being unable to fall back asleep (I wake up thinking about studies, repeating material in my head). My concentration has dropped. I've "treated" all this with a therapist individually, but my psychologist said it's the body's reaction to stress. Although I don't feel any particular stress. On the contrary, I'm quite happy, with only minor worries in my opinion. I understand that side effects aren't possible for everyone, everything is individual. But I really don't want to make the situation worse. I'm scared. I don't even know why I'm writing. Obviously, no one can decide for me whether to take it or not, but I'm leaning towards not taking it. And my psychologist says the next stage is panic attacks and neurosis. I've never dealt with this before, and this whole situation seems unreal, like it's not happening to me. Maybe I should just gather my willpower and pull myself out of this state? Hormones are all normal. Everything is absolutely normal. Thanks for reading.